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How does that feel baby?Wednesday, March 31, 2004
First of all, this is not a personal attack against anyone...i swear. I love when people can trust me with their problems, but sometimes it's like woa..i have issues too and no one helps me work through them. Now, I have realized that I have friends..thanks partly to my fourth hour crew..hehe.However, I sometimes wonder if I died, would anyone notice other than because it was one less person to talk to about their issues. Does anyone one feel like that too? I realize that some of my friends have more serious problems, or their sensitivity makes the problems seem worse than mine, so I have to be understanding. Maybe I need a shrink...haha NAH! just a kind ear to vent to. Or a lovah! haha Well...as Toma called it...*whining* will end here for now..haha. Thanks.
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7:18 PM
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I'm done...through.. if ya know what I mean. Well, today was a pretty swell day. The Government quiz kind of bummed me because it was incredibly difficult. Hey at least it is only the beginning..that sounds like a threat...it's only the beginning...dundundun! I need a job soo bad! I hate relying on my parents so much. They make me feel so guilty about asking for money. So, I think tomorrow I will call a few of the places that I applied, and tell them to hire me..OR ELSE! So, I am so excited about going to Showcase. Good Luck Christin and Phil, and whomever else I know in it. I wish that I wasn't so self concious about doing stuff like that. Ok, I officially HATE my bastard father. My mom said I could go to the Dashboard concert in May, but my dad said no and that his say is what goes. His argument is that he doesn't want a high school person driving to Detroit. WHAT THE HELL? Umm...that's a lot safer than when I got in the car...wait, when I was forced to get in the car with my dad who was driving on Saturday after have 6-count em- 6 glasses of WINE. Tell me that isn't reckless? If my dad had gotten pulled over and checked..he would have been spending the night in jail for a DUI. I hate hypocracy. He really ticks me off. My dad really knows how to push my buttons. He needs to do something so we can deport him.HAHA. That's ok, I will buy my ticket Friday and fucking sneak out if I must. My mom will cover for me. well....I was having a pretty O.K night until about 8. I hate this time of the month. Oh well, I think I am going to go write those note cards for Anatomy. I better study more than I did for Gov. That was a shitter. Well I am gonna go and let Toma read this. HI HEATHER!! #
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6:25 PM
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Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Hello. Today was a pretty damn good day. First hour was horrible, cuz, I mean, It's first hour and it's French. I have a lot of tests tomorrow and Wednesday, but I am not stressing. I probably should be stressing more, but what the hell! It's the beginning of fourth quarter, I'll start doing better later. So, I like this boy right? Ahh.. he makes me happy sometimes. Haha. What a weirdo I am, but today he said something and it seriously made me weak in the knees for the first time. I love that feeling. Oh, funny story. I fell asleep at like 4 and it was a really deep sleep apparantly, because I woke up, and my clock said 6:45. So I jump out of bed, got into my clothes and was like freaking out majorly. And then I realized that my parents were both home and awake and I was like wait wait wait....Oh..haha it's 6:45 PM Yeah, so I silently chuckled to myself. Ahh...it's those moments that make me think that everything is O.K. My relationship with my parents has been pretty good lately. Knock on wood. My parents relationship with each other has been so much..I mean so much better than it has been in the past. It makes me happy, too! Because, before this, like this year and the years before that, life at the the Poulos abode was HELL. ACT's Saturday!! WOOHOO. I PRAY that I do better this time..my mom was laughing at my previous score so..haha I wouldn't want to bring shame upon the family. If anyone else is going to Emmanuel Baptist, tell me so we can like talk about meeting or something. Well, it is 10pm and Who's Line is going to start. I'm heading off..
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6:27 PM
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Monday, March 29, 2004
Why can some people make you feel like absolute crapola? Lack of actions can hurt as much as actions. I keep trying to pinpoint what it is I did, or what is wrong with me. Confidence my ass! I learned this in Sociology. When you're in high school, your parents opinion or thoughts are miniscule compared to the influence your peers have on you. Maybe I am over sensitive but I keep looking at myself, trying to be funnier or smarter so maybe people will want to hang out with me. Sure, I wouldn't be deemed a "loser" by shallow high school standards, but to myself, I am what would be defined a "loser" Maybe I need to take more initiative and do things for my own, but I feel like I am so independent that I am borderline anti-social. I don't know if I want people reading this and thinking, WOW this girl has tons of issues, but I guess that's where my problem lies. I shouldn't care what people think as much. But I just want to know..do people feel like I do? Jeez, I don't have a job, I am only in two honors classess, yet I still feel all this stress. I just can't wait to go to college and reinvent myself. You know... this is only like the first quarter of my life and I shouldn't be worrying so much. I should just go with the flow and if I lose all my friends, so be it. High school is over in less than two years. Grin and bear it right? God, I must sound like such a whiner! So many people are so much worse off than me and they manage. I just wish I had people to fall back on. If only people knew how alone i feel than maybe they wouldn't call me "childish" or "immature". Cuz believe you me, I have never treated anyone with such hate and disregard for emotions as this person has to me. But, that is far from saying I am perfect. HAHA. Far from it. I am mean to my mom, I am mean to my friends when I'm not having a bad day. Maybe it's Karma biting me in the ass. I mean, I was in a bad mood today and when I went to LEO's, I lost the election for president. HAHA. But my mood is turning around because I am watching Who's Line. That show can make all your woahs go away. HAHA. PEACE
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7:23 PM
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Sunday, March 28, 2004
AHHH PEOPLE PISS ME OFF.STOP BEING SUCH A SELF-CENTERED PRICK/BITCH AND THINGS WILL BE PEACHY!! Maybe it's just me, but I wanna burrow like a freakin hamster and sleep my life away. GRRRRR
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posted by George |
7:49 PM
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Tomorrow is my mom's birthday. Last night, I went out to dinner with my parents, grandma, and 3 sets of aunts and uncles out of 9. It was a lot of fun, but I didn't get home until 10:30 and it was too late to do anything. But it's ok that way since I have no friends anyway. I always go to Family Video, cuz I am a movie buff, and I'm always there by myself. Haha. The employees know me by name. I don't know. I like being by myself, but it seems like I am always alone. Yeah, sure, people act like we're friends, but when it comes down to like , being invited to a party that all my "friends" go to, i'm not. I know that I can call people and stuff, but I think that inviting yourself is pathetic. I just don't like people. Everyone is moving on, and getting different friends and shit like that, and I am stuck in a rut. But enough of my bitching. My family and I watched Mona Lisa Smile as like a bonding thing. Haha. The movie wasn't that good. It pushed what it wanted you to think of it too much on the viewer. I also rented Lion King Special Addition so I could watch the music video at the end. Yeah, i'm a dork. Oh well. Tomorrow is my mom's birthday and I haven't bought her anything. I probably will just get her flowers of some sort. She's always so hard to by for. But I know that if I buy her anything that's indicative of her age, all hell will break loose. I think thats it. Sorry my blogs aren't as exciting to read as others. Guess I'm not that exciting.
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7:24 PM
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Tuesday, March 23, 2004
So I am definitely living in some sort of twilight zone. Exhibit A: I wake up from my ritualistically nap, and in the kitchen my dad has bought my mom lilies. Well, this is great and all, but it's not quite her birthday or any sort of special occasion. This never happens in my house! The norm is for my parents to fight and me to sit in my room and just deal. But I guess this is a welcomed change, just a bit weird. Well, yesterday I attended the Snow Core Tour with TRAPT and them. It was pretty good. I really liked Smile Empty Soul. I think the lead singer from TRAPT is kind of a tool. He, to me at least, seems to be more of a showman, and that's not necessarily a bad thing,just not what I am into. Anyways, we couldn't get to the floor so we were stuck in the stands with like college boys toking it up behind us. Why would you even do that at a concert where the security people are everywhere? I know why...STUPIDITY. Yeah, it was enjoyable, but I didn't get to bed until 2am and the night before it was 4am so I was so irritable today. I am so excited for the Vans Warped Tour. I just love concerts and being on the floor with all those people. So I think I want to go to GQ. I went the first year and it was so much fun, but I didn't go last year for some reason. I just have to come up with six bucks and someone to go with. Maybe I will ask Toma since we didn't do anything last weekend. I dunno if Jess is going but if she does then we should all go together. That'll be fun. SHIT! I have a government quiz and I didn't study, but I did do my English. Speaking of English, Friday I get to go to UT for foreign language day or something. That should be sexciting. I guess I should be heading off to do my Gov.
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posted by George |
6:53 PM
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Sunday, March 21, 2004
What a night. The lock-in was more fun than expected. Lots of drama of which i tried to keep out of my "bubble of happiness". I was seriously injured in the moonwalk thing. Haha. I was protecting myself in the corner and my calf muscle was flexed for some reason and someone jumps on my leg and pulls down. It kills! Oh and I jammed my pinky playing knock-out. Guess i'm not one for the sports. I hung out with Steve a lot last night/this morning. He's really funny. He was telling me his tactics for getting his girlfriend. What fun. So many people were there this time. It was nuckin futs. Yeah, so I walk in after getting my All American Rejects teeshirt out of Jessi's car cuz I only had a sweatshirt, and some girl-to my face- was like All American Rejects suck. I guess I am a little sensitive because I took it personally! Oh well, I think my wounds have healed. Well, I have officially become a romantic. I remember when I used to be so anti-love and i hated gushy crap, but now I can't help but smile while watching a romantic comedy or something. And this morning was like-ahh I wanna boyfriend- no, ok, because Matt and Jessi were talking and Matt's ex girlfriend, who had been harrassing Jessi all night, comes up to her and was like shut the eff up. And Jessi was like don't talk to me like that. So this chick tries to take a swing at Jess and Matt pulls her behind him and takes one-ok three-for the team. It was so cute in it's own demented little way. But I had fun none the less. Well, tomorrow I pray that the homework gods are kind to me because I will have no time to do any of it..Well ok, a little of it. Because I have to leave for my concert-woohoo- at 6. It's Trapt-but I am more going for Finger11 and Smile Empty Soul. It's gonna be a hoot and a half. But anyways, this is my way of avoiding the inevitable-Earl essay- so I suppose I should go do that now. Geez, life stinks right about now. Oh well, I'll manage.
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6:36 PM
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Friday, March 19, 2004
Well today I went to Monroe Rd Family Night and there were tons of screaming children there. It's weird, but I absolutely don't like the little buggers. So then after family night, which lasted a long time, I went to Connie's house. I was originally going to stay there for a while and then go see a movie with my other friend, but when I called my friend, she was ALREADY IN THE MOVIE. That kinda pissed me off because she talks about how she can't stand when people ditch her...but oh well. I had fun just goofing off with people, playing Donkey Kong, and having ping-pongs chucked at my head by Ben. Hmm.. I got a weird message from Laura though. She called when I was at Connie's and after a while I told her that I had to go and she seemed kinda..egh. But anyways, today it so happened that I created my own evil bitchy counselor story. Phil is right, they truly are one of a kind dumbasses. I think I used to like my counselor before today. A warning bell should have gone off in my head when I walked into the counselors office at the beginning of the year and a girl was coming out of VanReybrouck's office bawling. Well, it is 12:30 on a Friday night, so I think I am going to finish up my government book report to get it out of the way because I think Connie and Jessi convinced me to go to the Mt. Carmel lock-in tomorrow night. But I want more of my friends to come so in the immortal words of Jessi tonight, "be there or be square!"
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posted by George |
9:14 PM
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Thursday, March 18, 2004
How do I make this Blog prettier and get my own personal template? Lots of people do so if you can help me talk to me...oh and how can i get feedback too.. #
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3:12 PM
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Greetings from the sick girl! Ugh... I woke up so many times in the middle of the night with the feeling of shards of glass in my throat. So, come 6am, I was too tired to get up and ready.But apparently in government today, we were talking about unprotected minorities. Elaine told me that Jason said I would have had a field day with that because yesterday we were talking about protected minorities and Mr. Barr was being so bigoted. I felt like banging my head against the desk. I did call him out on a couple things when he was talking about the "Indians". I wonder if there is such a thing as being too liberal for your own good. I think I'm prone to controversy. Come on, I live in Bedford, with a population on like 100 Democrats. At least I have some allies....
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2:09 PM
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Saturday, March 13, 2004
HELLO! It is Saturday evening...well, Sunday morning, kinda. It's 12:27. Anyways...my legs hurt. A day of shopping can really wear a girl out. Nah.. I really don't like shopping. And I dislike the mall cuz there are WAY too many people and like today, i went alone (cuz i hate shopping for clothes with people) and i felt like i was getting stared at because I was alone. So I like imagined people whispering and thinking WOW that girl has no friends. Haha.. Me and my paranoia. So other than that, i really didn't do much of anything today. I bought "Schindler's List" on DVD and I think I will watch the extras tonight. Tomorrow, I am working at the Trade Fair from 12-2:30. I hope to see everyone. Come visit me cuz it is a given that I'll be bored. I'm not in the writing mood, so I bid you all to find some way to listen to The Cranberries "Zombies", and think of me..hehe.
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9:27 PM
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Thursday, March 11, 2004
Hello.. Hello everyone. Yeah so I definitely first started my blog about-literally a month ago- and I liked it, but then i came back to write another one but i couldn't figure how to access it for the life of me. It's so complicated. Be smarter than the machine Georgianna-Yeah, i talk to myself sometimes. Anyways, it is Thursday night and i am sitting at home, sipping Green Tea, listening to Bright Eyes. Sometimes I, George, believe it or not, like to be alone and just wallow in my depression. Haha not that extreme people. Hmm speaking of people, i wonder if anyone reads my blogger...? Ahh to hell with em i say ol chap. Today, I got really into "Outbreak" with Dustin Hoffman, just like I got into " Harvest of Fire". Now, Amanda and Christin will have to agree that the movie HoF is grade-A quality. Now, I must mention something because it's actually quite funny to me.... My computer has this virus thing where like every 5-10 mins it like tells you it's gonna shut down and then does. So I basically have been sitting here like for an hour trying to complete this journal! I can't believe that it hasn't frusterated me to the point where i don't wanna do it anymore...hmm. What else is there to say?....Oh, yeah...we're reading a short story in English called "A Rose for Emily", and in it, Emily kills her lover and has him on a bed for over 30 years and like sleeps next to his corpse. I think it's more symbolic of the extreme loneliness and ostracism that some people come to find. So if i ever get that lonely I'd probably shoot myself...hahaha. Some people find me somewhat masachistic, but I only joke around. Anyways, to make a long story short..haha.. I have no idea where that came from. I think I am gonna head off soon because I rented "School of Rock' and plan on watching it early. I have to wake up early tomorrow to go see " The Passion of the Christ" with my grandma. Then, it's off to the gym to workout, and then to Cristi's at around 8. But other than tomorrow, I have no idea what i'm gonna do this weekend. So if anyone of you wanna hang out, don't hesitate to call.. Have a nice evening.
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